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It is all an Idea of God

This entry was posted on 6/23/2009 9:03 AM and is filed under Secrets to Peace 2009.

So every day
I was surrounded by the beautiful crying forth
of the ideas of God,

one of which was you.

- So every day, by Mary Oliver

I can not
or perhaps will not
let this idea go.

It seems mandatory
to remind myself
over and over,
if need be

that every thing I see
is a manifestation
of God.

It is important because I still want to judge the stunning blue jay, even in its meanness, as beautiful, and the sparrow as rather dull, its colors not as aesthetically pleasing.

It is important because I want to hate the revolutionary guard who controls, with violence, my brother's quest for freedom, dignity, and self-determination.

If I really knew,
fully owned the wisdom
that it was all God,
would I still pick and choose
when to offer my love
and when to withdraw this offer?

It is apparent to me that this is an "all or nothing" proposition. There is no middle ground. To love God with all my heart and soul is the only choice which promises lasting peace.

Recognizing that "it is all God" calls my commitment to a new level; often well beyond my comfort zone.

It is so easy to see God in your eyes, in your heart, and in your actions when you are doing what I think is consistent with how love should look, act, and be demonstrated.

I want to abandon this whole notion the minute your choices seem to prove my theories are all wrong; the second you show up in opposition to the thoughts I hold so dear.

It is very tempting to leave God out there
separate from it's creation,
that one ideal
the only perfection
that deity
singularly worthy
of my unconditional love.

Of course, if I am totally honest
with myself
I have had trouble with that idea too.
Remember when I thought I was living my life
"right"
and this God
of thought
still sent thieves
in the night?
Even then
despite the fact that God
was out there, somewhere,
I had trouble
loving her,
all the time.

Perhaps the challenge lies
not in where I place God
but in the fact that I am only willing
to love freely
when I get my way;
when life
unfolds exactly
as I think it should.

To love
as God loves
may be too lofty of a goal
for a mind
which thinks it can identify
that which deserves love
and that which does not.

And yet
to love
with reckless abandon
is what drives me.
It is what defines me.
It is the longing
which propels my feet,
hands, and heart
forward.
It is my motivation for
honest self examination.
It is what calls me
to present-moment awareness.

In this moment
I forgive myself
for the judgments
I have used
to warrant selfishness.

Perhaps by learning
to love myself,
as I long to love others,
I shall find the courage
to see only God
when I look at me,
even if I do not like what I see.

Maybe this will free me
to remember
that everything I see

is an idea of God
crying forth,

as you,
as me.

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6/23/2009 9:46 AM two feathers wrote:
dead on, my brother.
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6/23/2009 12:27 PM Eve wrote:
I read the following at random to a friend today. I discovered this little book when visiting my sister recently – I trust that there are no coincidences and thus there is something here for me to learn. When I read this after reading your blog, I was once again confirmed of how the Universe continues to unfold a consistent Truth to all creation…showing it one way to you and another to me. How blessed we are that there are those such as you Elliott who are willing to share the Truth revealed to them that we might know our oneness.

“But all these conditions and experienc3s in life which you entered into, and which when pleasing seemed Good, and when displeasing seemed Evil, were merely incidents created by Desire to quicken in you certain Soul faculties, which would enable you to recognize the Truths that I, within wished at the time to impress upon your consciousness. The app[aren’t Evil was the negative aspect of the Fruit of the Tree which always lured you on by its fair appearance and by the sweetness of the first taste to eat and enjoy to satiation, or until its harmful effects manifested and became a curse, bringing final disillusionment; which served to turn or force you back in humiliation to ME, your True Self, Who, through the new consciousness thus aroused, was then enabled to extract the Essence of the Fruit and incorporate it into Soul substance and tissue.”

“And the apparent good was the positive aspect of the Fruit, which, having pushed forth of itself into expression, through your recognition of and obedience to its urge, was now permitting you to enjoy its happy and natural effects, and to rec34eive the outward benefits of My loving inspiration and guidance.”

“But this you, who was being led by Desire through all these experiences, was only your human personality, which the Real you was training and developing and preparing so it could become a perfect instrument for Your use in the expression of My Idea, ever seeking to manifest Its perfection in the flesh. “
Found on pages 42-43 in the Impersonal Life – Anonymous
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